mmanuel, Speaker of Truths; Yielder of the Vernacular Sword —1/14/18
I'm still having a difficult time connecting with Emmanuel. Being in the physical, living a physical life during the day with Chris, and a awakened life with Emmanuel by night is very confusing and guilt-ridden. I need to continually remind myself that we were designed by the Holy Father to love unconditionally, and to accept love unconditionally.
It’s almost like getting amnesia. You have it, then awaken, realizing that you had a completely other life. What do you do? You now have two husbands; one by day, and the other by night…conundrum! I'm very blessed to have Chris enjoy the evenings at the farm; alone, and me have the houseboat. I feel that the time on the farm belongs to Chris and I, and the time spend in the evenings/night on the houseboat belong to Emmanuel.
(D) I was sleeping for a couple of hours, when I was jarred awake to the song, A Love Song, by Kenny Logins that was playing in my head. “I want to sing you a love song; I want to rock you in my arms all night long…” I was awake for a bit, when I started to drift off to sleep, but awoke to another song…Nothing’s Going to Change My Love for You, by George Benson. “Nothing’s going to change my love for you; you ought to know by now how much I love you…”
(D) Emmanuel love for me and mine for him are truly timeless.
I’m not losing you.
(D) I’m having a hard time hearing you. I was half a sleep when I heard you yell the words, “I’m not losing you.”
(D) LOL, I see that you are showing me that I have a blockage; physically. I need you to tell me what to do; I’m having difficulty hearing you. It all stems from the other day when I thought that I lost you.
I promise you happiness.
(D) I started to dose off, when I thought that I heard a stick; snap.
(D) What are you sorry about? You don’t have to feel sorry. I feel terrible that I might be hurting you.
Truths exist for those on the heart’s paths need for knowingness.
(D) I thought that I heard someone else saying, “Are you playing tricks on me?”
(D) Ouch! I suddenly have a sharp stabbing pain in my right foots Achilles tendon and in the left side of my ribcage. Just before that I saw someone struggling with someone else. Please careful.
(D) I see your energy, so I know you’re alright. I was concerned.
(D) The next thing that I remember, I was dreaming of being with someone and enjoying his company. Another man approached me while I was leaving and was coming onto me. I remember saying something to him and I touched his back.
Inter-sanctum is a time for great truths.